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Peterson Reveals Violent Impulses He Experienced While Studying Totalitarian Evil

Jordan B. Peterson Podcast · How to Become Who You Are Meant to Be · July 5, 2026
Peterson Reveals Violent Impulses He Experienced While Studying Totalitarian Evil
Jordan B. Peterson Podcast
Jordan B. Peterson Podcast
How to Become Who You Are Meant to Be
"When I was sitting in class, I would sometimes get the impulse to stick the person in front of me with a pen. And I'd never done anything violent in my life. It was kind of an obsessive thought. And I had no idea what to make of that thought at all. And it was unsettling."
Peterson discloses disturbing intrusive thoughts of violence he experienced while researching Nazi Germany and Soviet atrocities in his youth. He connects these impulses to his realization that understanding human capacity for evil requires acknowledging one's own dark potential. The thoughts disappeared only after he accepted he was capable of the atrocities he was studying, making the problem of evil personal rather than abstract.

About this episode

Jordan Peterson delivers the third lecture from his recent tour, analyzing the biblical story of Abraham as a template for living a meaningful life oriented toward adventure rather than security. Peterson frames the lecture through his early obsession with understanding evil, particularly Nazi and Soviet atrocities, which he studied beginning at age 13. He reveals that this research led him to disturbing personal realizations, including intrusive violent thoughts that only ceased when he acknowledged his own capacity for evil. Peterson controversially argues that COVID-19 compliance demonstrated most people would not have resisted totalitarianism, contrary to their self-perception. He redefines totalitarian states not as top-down oppression but as societies where universal lying has taken hold. The core of the lecture interprets Abraham's departure from his father's house at age 75 as a rejection of infantile security in favor of responding to divine calling toward adventure. Peterson argues this represents the fundamental human choice between comfortable stagnation and meaningful sacrifice. He attacks progressive political utopias, citing Dostoyevsky's claim that humans would sabotage perfect material comfort to create meaning. Peterson defines God functionally as the voice of adventure and conscience that calls individuals forward, arguing that heeding this call with proper sacrifice leads to both personal greatness and universal benefit. He emphasizes that belief is demonstrated through action rather than intellectual assent, and that progress requires sacrificing one's inadequate former self. The lecture builds to the assertion that voluntary acceptance of life's catastrophe, symbolized by carrying one's cross, transforms suffering into adventure.

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