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Ahmed Faced Death During Hospitalization Pleaded With God to Let Him Live

Name: Ahmed Faced Death During Hospitalization Pleaded With God to Let Him Live
Uploaded: 2026-06-10T07:21:00+00:00
Description: During his lowest moment hospitalized with a resistant autoimmune condition that threatened his heart and lungs, Riz Ahmed faced the real possibility of death. Alone at night and unable to sleep due to steroids, he made a spiritual bargain with God, promising to dedicate his life to giving if he survived. The next morning doctors discussed starting intensive chemotherapy treatment.

On Purpose with Jay Shetty · Riz Ahmed: How to Silence Your Inner Critic (And Build REAL Self Worth) · June 10, 2026

On Purpose with Jay Shetty

Riz Ahmed: How to Silence Your Inner Critic (And Build REAL Self Worth)

"I started asking myself, am I going to make my way out of this? Am I going to die here? I started talking to God and I said, if you please give me a chance, if you please let me live, I promise you as much as I can, I will give."

During his lowest moment hospitalized with a resistant autoimmune condition that threatened his heart and lungs, Riz Ahmed faced the real possibility of death. Alone at night and unable to sleep due to steroids, he made a spiritual bargain with God, promising to dedicate his life to giving if he survived. The next morning doctors discussed starting intensive chemotherapy treatment.

About this episode

On this episode of On Purpose, host Jay Shetty sits down with Academy Award-winning actor Riz Ahmed for an intimate two-hour conversation exploring identity, shame, mental health, and the gap between public and private selves. Ahmed made several striking revelations, including that British intelligence agencies MI5 and MI6 repeatedly attempted to recruit him after he gained fame, and that he was hospitalized for over two months during Star Wars filming with a severe autoimmune condition that left him unable to walk. Ahmed attributed the life-threatening illness to an out-of-control critical inner voice, stating he believed his body had turned on itself due to relentless self-attack. The conversation centered heavily on Ahmed's new series Bait, which explores validation-seeking, the performance of identity, and the shame created by distance between who we are and how we're seen. Ahmed revealed childhood trauma of being held at knifepoint by racist skinheads at age eight, an experience that set him on a lifelong journey of code-switching and navigating multiple identities. The two bonded over shared experiences growing up in Northwest London, dealing with vocal and physical health issues tied to mental strain, and the challenge of maintaining authenticity while operating in public-facing careers. Ahmed discussed his recent pilgrimage to Mecca, the importance of devotion to purpose, and his belief that the obstacle is often the key. The episode concluded with Ahmed advocating for everyone to put down their phones, describing how disconnecting from devices fundamentally changes his experience of time and brings him closer to presence.

Key takeaways

Ahmed revealed British intelligence agencies MI5 and MI6 made multiple recruitment attempts after he became famous, which he refused.
One week into filming Star Wars, Ahmed developed a severe autoimmune condition that hospitalized him for over two months and left him unable to walk.
Ahmed believes his life-threatening illness stemmed from an out-of-control critical inner voice causing his body to attack itself.
At his lowest point in hospital facing possible death, Ahmed made a spiritual bargain with God promising to dedicate his life to giving.
Ahmed was held at knifepoint by racist skinheads at age eight, a formative trauma that shaped his lifelong navigation of identity.
The new series Bait explores the distance between public and private self as a measurement of shame, drawn from Ahmed's personal experiences.
Ahmed discussed how external validation and awards provide only fleeting satisfaction, while flow state and forgetting oneself brings true fulfillment.